I am pregnant!

What am I doing? Announcing my pregnancy in the early weeks? I know, I'm crazy. I've already been through one early miscarriage, and still I announce it to the world. How can anyone hold a secret this long? Beats me. I'll be 7 weeks next and be able to hear the heartbeat! After that, I'll be able to breathe easy. And honestly, if I miscarry...it will hurt like hell, but God says 'There's next month'. :o)

Anywho, let's get to the good stuff...this entry was written the morning I found out I was pregnant...

Sunday 10/3/10

"This morning I got up. Couldn't sleep, wanted to take my temp. Thought what the 'hey' and took it a bit earlier than normal. Temp sky rocketed. 98.48! And I slept butt naked last night! Decided today was the day. Took a dollar test, a cup, and my cell phone into guest bathroom. (Didn't want to wake up my hubby!) Realized the test box was empty (why did I place an empty box in the cupboard, I'll never know.) Ran back into our bathroom to get new test box. Ripped it open. Peed in cup while ensuring the instructions that I had read so many times had not changed. Put my four drops of pee into window. Sat there like an idiot, staring at the clock. A million things begin running through my mind. No more sleeping late, having to drop the spontaneity, extra bills, careers. I thought to myself "What am I doing". Two minutes pass. I glance down. "Is that a line?". WTF!! Even last month when I had the chemical I HAVE NEVER got a line on the $ Tests. NEVER. And here I was today...with a line. A positive line. Thoughts race. Must get box of FRER (first response)! Had one stick left. Used it quickly with same pee in cup. THAT FASTEST AND DARKEST LINE IN MY LIFE APPEARED!


Dropped to my knees almost crying but thanking God. Only him.


Afterward, I couldn't believe it. But still following suit. Taking a digital test, AS SOON AS ITS HUMANLY OK TO STOP AND GET ONE! It's currently 6:10 am and it's the slowest day ever already. .. I need a digital with hubby to confirm as I have never had positive on digital EVER. This would be quite an amazing thing if I did. If I don't...that's ok...


THANK YOU GOD!


Update @ 10 am: Shortly after I wrote a that took digital (yes, I purchased one at ungodly hours in the morning)...SAID POSITIVE!!


Shared the news with our pastors, they prayed over our seed. Lady M said "It's yours." :)"

What an exciting morning! I got excited just by reading it again, like I didn't know what was gonna happen either! I'm super excited and of course nervous that at any minute any thing could go wrong. But I have incredible support from friends and family, I'm confident if something goes wrong, they'll be just as supportive. I feel incredibly blessed.

Now...I'm happy and bursting at the seams...BUT..I'm also dying!! Morning sickness kicked in slowly this week and full blown the last few days. UGH! It's awful because I'm the sickest in the early AM. LIKE NIGHT TIME! I know! I wake up every night at around 1-3 AM, and feel like puking my guts out. Torture and blessing is so far I haven't. But it's just been awful. Then I have to sit up, even though I'll be so incredibly tired, if I lay down I feel so sick again. Finally it will go away as I fall asleep on a high incline. That's not the worst of it, every morning I feel like CRAP came to visit me, and it goes away for a little bit, and comes back throughout the day to visit. I basically stay sick 24/7, around the clock. Ugh, it's alot, and no one prepared me for all the emotions, and certainly no one gave my hubby the warning I'd have a death hit list on him for just breathing...but we are doing ok. :)

Toodles.

Another challenge...

Yes, I've given myself the ultimate challenge!! A crazy journey that will probably really make me feel like I'm entering a new phase of my life....

I'm going AU NATURALE! With my hair of course, I've decided to stop getting relaxers (straighteners) and to just try to this natural hair thing (curly or textured hair). I've been going back and forth on it for probably years, but I lost count when I got my last relaxer, I believe it was...August 6 (or at least I'll say it was for the time being. So today that would be make me post: Almost 10 weeks post. Not that far along since I usually get relaxers every8-10 weeks, but after this week, THEN, I'll really be pushing the limits of my sanity in my hair.

I'm excited, I got little waves already and so what the heck, chopping off my hair slowly, I have nothing to lose. After all, if it sucks like crazy, I'll just relax it! I'm sure it's more complicated than that, but...it's morning, what do you want from me? :)

Toodles.

I realized.

I realized that I haven't posted for the whole month of October yet! Not one post! I'm sure some people can guess what may be slowing me down...but I'm not ready to release it yet :)

Things have been going good at home, the house has been super messy and things have been out of order all week, and I'm EXHAUSTED. I feel like work is kicking my butt, although I don't do a lot for my job the little work I do kicks my butt! Yesterday all I wanted to do was go home and relax. Today after church, I'm solely relaxing, making dinner and finishing the clothes. I don't want to go out or anything.  Maybe to eat, hehe.

In other news, we are going to Houston the week after this coming week for 4 days!! So excited  for the conference! Well we love to travel so really it's just the packing up and out for the week that I truly love!

I think I'm going to let my hair go natural. I'm tired of relaxers. I know this a big step, but I want to try it now. I haven't had a relaxer since...I can't remember but it's only been about 8-10 weeks probably. I think I'm going to stay away. My hair is breaking off anyway, so I plan to keep getting it cut shorter and shorter gradually. I can straighten my hair now, or eventually do a weave while growing it out. New life stages require new looks!

Also, I think God has been hinting to my hubby and I about a new home. Well we like our home now, but we bought it intentionally as a starter home. Since we've been in it for a few years now, and know a good thing or two about homeownership, we think we may be ready to move on to the big leagues of homebuying....


Building our own home! 

Sounds crazy right? But we always said what we would like in our home, but haven't been able to find in any other homes. So we decided that it may be less expensive to find a nice home and reconstruct it to fit our perfect model, then to just purchase some land and build our own. Now, we aren't starting this tomorrow, BUT we are looking at plans and construction, prices, lots, etc. I say within the next 5-8 years it's something I'd like to accomplish. But there's alot of factors in that, and we still have to finish this house! But it's a nice goal for us to share :)

Well I'm off to do something about this ragamuffin on top of my head in time for church. Toodles.