Anywho, let's get to the good stuff...this entry was written the morning I found out I was pregnant...
Sunday 10/3/10What an exciting morning! I got excited just by reading it again, like I didn't know what was gonna happen either! I'm super excited and of course nervous that at any minute any thing could go wrong. But I have incredible support from friends and family, I'm confident if something goes wrong, they'll be just as supportive. I feel incredibly blessed.
"This morning I got up. Couldn't sleep, wanted to take my temp. Thought what the 'hey' and took it a bit earlier than normal. Temp sky rocketed. 98.48! And I slept butt naked last night! Decided today was the day. Took a dollar test, a cup, and my cell phone into guest bathroom. (Didn't want to wake up my hubby!) Realized the test box was empty (why did I place an empty box in the cupboard, I'll never know.) Ran back into our bathroom to get new test box. Ripped it open. Peed in cup while ensuring the instructions that I had read so many times had not changed. Put my four drops of pee into window. Sat there like an idiot, staring at the clock. A million things begin running through my mind. No more sleeping late, having to drop the spontaneity, extra bills, careers. I thought to myself "What am I doing". Two minutes pass. I glance down. "Is that a line?". WTF!! Even last month when I had the chemical I HAVE NEVER got a line on the $ Tests. NEVER. And here I was today...with a line. A positive line. Thoughts race. Must get box of FRER (first response)! Had one stick left. Used it quickly with same pee in cup. THAT FASTEST AND DARKEST LINE IN MY LIFE APPEARED!
Dropped to my knees almost crying but thanking God. Only him.
Afterward, I couldn't believe it. But still following suit. Taking a digital test, AS SOON AS ITS HUMANLY OK TO STOP AND GET ONE! It's currently 6:10 am and it's the slowest day ever already. .. I need a digital with hubby to confirm as I have never had positive on digital EVER. This would be quite an amazing thing if I did. If I don't...that's ok...
THANK YOU GOD!
Update @ 10 am: Shortly after I wrote a that took digital (yes, I purchased one at ungodly hours in the morning)...SAID POSITIVE!!
Shared the news with our pastors, they prayed over our seed. Lady M said "It's yours." :)"
Now...I'm happy and bursting at the seams...BUT..I'm also dying!! Morning sickness kicked in slowly this week and full blown the last few days. UGH! It's awful because I'm the sickest in the early AM. LIKE NIGHT TIME! I know! I wake up every night at around 1-3 AM, and feel like puking my guts out. Torture and blessing is so far I haven't. But it's just been awful. Then I have to sit up, even though I'll be so incredibly tired, if I lay down I feel so sick again. Finally it will go away as I fall asleep on a high incline. That's not the worst of it, every morning I feel like CRAP came to visit me, and it goes away for a little bit, and comes back throughout the day to visit. I basically stay sick 24/7, around the clock. Ugh, it's alot, and no one prepared me for all the emotions, and certainly no one gave my hubby the warning I'd have a death hit list on him for just breathing...but we are doing ok. :)
Toodles.
